2006-05-19/12:02 a.m.

mongoose, where are you?

i am exhausted from travelling to pickering yesterday and back to peterborough today, as well as performing in bowmanville and recording in ajax. my sinuses and clothes are filled with smoke and i crave fresh veggies and my own pillow, but it was worth it.

i got to sleep with the kitten and the boy in his bed in the middle of the week. i can think of no better reward after a long day of writing an exam, cleaning the apt, travelling, and socializing with my father. no better reward at all.

now, to get a good nights sleep in my own bed so im ready for class tomorrow. i shall spend the long weekend at my mothers house, catching up on schoolwork, reading, snuggling the gray cat, seeing my toronto brother, and practicing for my gig the following weekend.

me. a gig. at a rodeo. it is all kinds of ridiculous. i best bring some vegan peanut butter crunch, advertise the veggie dogs, and sing love songs about women i used to know to even things out.

time for a well-deserved nap. er.. sleep. sleep. yes.

and i hope my dad enjoys his new answering machine. best. birthday. present. ever. well, at least since his 15 year old answering machine finally broke. poor thing.

note to self: dont smother the boy. he is much more romantic when you dont. and he is right - being comfortable is good. safety isnt boring, its just exciting in an easy, unexpected way. i never expect ease. life with the boy isnt without effort, but the work is definitely too pleasurable right now to be considered work.

i just hope we can remain steady as so much of the rest of our separate lives is up in the air.

really.. time to sleep and dream of that mongoose again.