2006-07-12/2:23 a.m.

nothing is ever simple or easy

a lazy day, for the most part, lounging about in the boys bed. we meant to go out to a movie sooner, we really did, but the backup plan was just as nice.

we did end up getting out to see a movie, plus do some shopping and eat some junk. i got a new cd (feist remixes), a dvd (clue), and some jeans to replace mine that have authentic holes in the knees and pretty much everywhere else too.

drama has erupted, once again, but i am only associated with it.. by.. er.. association. rather, its not my drama, but the drama of a couple that is no longer a couple and have only recently become part of mine. i knew of them through the roomies, but not personally. as i grow closer to the gal, the guy dumps more of his responsibilities into my lap. our conversation started out nicely enough, though completely without warning or reason from my view, but it quickly progressed and i found myself not only pledging to take care of her, but also reassuring him that he isnt a complete waste of a human being.

the jury is still out on that one, so i shall continue to talk to him. i wont hate him simply on principle or out of loyalty to her.. at least until she asks me to. i am not fond of him, but i still dont know him well enough to condemn his behaviour completely. thats not to say that i necessarily want to get to know him either, as it seems that everyone he touches falls to pieces.

i cause myself to shatter enough; i dont need another person in my life that threatens me with that fate. however, he is important to her, and she is important to me, so i shant write him off just yet.

the boy is quicker to judge, and perhaps he is right to do so.

he just doenst want me to get hurt in the crossfire of lovers, again. also, he doesnt want me to regret inviting a gal into me bed, again. at least this time she was single. single, but not simple.

sigh. time for bed and hopefully i wont have any more foreshadowing nightmares.